The hidden part of the iceberg at university.
Or “ why my biggest fear is not to fail a class ”.

TO MOVE

• you have to get your muscles to do the right thing
• you have to be careful not to fall
• not to punch someone
• not to break anything
• not to forget what is in your hands
• not to drop or to throw anything
• all of these can happen if you don’t pay attention

TO ANSWER

• you have to focus
• to understand that someone is talking to you
• to understand that someone wants an answer
• to remember the sentences they/she/he said
• to understand it
• to know/find the answer
• to build a comprehensive sentence
• to say it
• to do all of these in few seconds

TO PLAN

• to sleep, to study, to rest, to go to the hospital
• how many medical certificates can be accepted
• to manage with the planned and unplanned
• if you will need specific fittings for your exams
• if your body will be able to work the night shift
• if you can stay invisible or not as a spoonie
• if others can count on you in a group work
• if you can count on yourself (spoil: probably not)
• how to react to discrimination, ableism included
• how to react if the university want to dismiss you

IN SILENCE

• you may suffer like hell
• you may be in a huge conflict with your brain

Well. 

Now, maybe you have an idea for what i’m anxious in my everyday student life. Every steps i wrote can be difficult or almost impossible for me. 

But I am there, in the front row, recording the courses and sharing all the audios with the other students. 

They compare their rankings to mine. 

If only they knew.