I’m older than most students in my college cause I already did different studies/jobs/things in my life. It’s a strength, without that experiences I would not be who I am today. The younger people around me think that I wasted my time and failed my life.

I must be stupid, cause I never wanted to study medicine before I got sick?

The other day, in class, we learned different types of epilepsy and we watched movies of patients. Some students was uncomfortable, me included.
But a lot of them was laughing.
It wasn’t awkward, it was just nasty.

Do you want to be a doctor to HELP people?
Cause that’s what we need.

I’m sitting right next to you, asking myself if my body will survive my next treatment, if I could still walk, read or write in the coming years or months. If I finaly found a good doctor, I think I did actually. But I feel sad for the hundreds of patients who don’t have the courage to leave them and maintain bad doctors unwittingly.

None of this makes sense, none of this is fair.

And you.

Small future doctors.

Right next to me.

You laugh at epilepsy.